standing from afar

What could I do?
but to stand from afar,
watching from a distance....
do I wish for more?

by just watching...
it has already satisfied the inner most desire....
the best thing is that, you never realized....
with hope in eternity that you would never know...

I enjoy watching and observing your spontaneous reaction..
without you acknowledging the surroundings...
including noticing me...

the greatest gift and mystery is that,
I want to stay out from the limelight in your eyes...

this is the beauty of the crush...
not knowing someone is admiring you..
keeping the mystery....
it's not it?

however, the stupidity is...
you're trying to hide your feelings away from him.
none of us want to confront this kind feelings..
maybe it's the basic rule in our culture...

he passes by you....
you try your best not to look at him as the shadow goes behind you...
till he's a mile away....
you started to search for a glimpse of him...
& he has gone...

you know it clearly that crush is merely
a feeling of liking and admiring one
it's usually temporarily..
it's so common to everyone...that it reflects
the hormone fluctuations and chemistry in a human being...
and nothing unusual...

when you turn back,
the usual response is...
"oh, it's just another crush"....
no volcano eruptions..
no big deal anyway, in a cheekily smile...

well, this is the mystery and the beauty of a crush...
whether you choose to deny or not...
one will never, even given the guts....
to confront that, "I have a crush on you"

it's not a norm in our society..be it for a lady or a guy...
this feeling will only be buried deep in the grave of your hearts...
for whatever reasons it could be,
one may not know or have yet to discover...

as far to my certainty...
crush is part and parcels in life
it makes you feel normal as your heart is made of flesh,
no robotics...

still, I yet to say...
standing from afar