"Why isn't one venturing into something, which drives the passion?" ; still the answer remains, in silent which sinks into the ocean, fall onto the bottomless seabed...
in the midst of your friends, just laughingly allowing the conversation passes by....
Somehow, you will be tempted to search & root out the cause that has brought one to this current situation.....?
Just to realize, a small whisper from the heart :"fear..."; and you reply to yourself, "hahah (acting as if un-believable state).. (starting to be serious)ermm, what fear?what's the cause...?"
Answer: "it's your pass failures" ....reply: "is it so? I'm sorry I truly couldn't get over.... " The tear drop falls like little pearls onto the ground.
This rewinds back to the situation: I've been good in something (copy writing & ideas),while, being criticized with things which I'm bad at (e.g. management, & details...) ; so easily it defeats the spark of confidence within, just like blowing off little fire which burning weakly on standing candle in this treasure heart.. "pufff" - the fire gone.
Resulting the current status quo. Whenever you want to move forward, the past pulls you back valiantly to the ground, gradually the thought of failures surfaces on to your mind...."you can't do it".
My Biggest Challenge: God has to break this vicious cycle in my mind. the thoughts which always overwhelm,by the state of failure. I release those past failures, into the hands of God; & believing, the Almighty is bringing me into something New victoriously.
ending with a song of encouragement,
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